Dream of You Last night

I don't know why, I usually don't even dream but last night I did and you were in it. It wasn't a good dream were I was happy because I was with you, it was a bad dream because you weren't with me. I don't know what's wrong with me, its seems that I'm diseased with this sickness I really dislike feeling like this.

People have told me that when I write in here about you it seems that I am writing in here about my soulmate, I refuse to believe that. You hurt me and by the looks of it I have not recovered yet. Little things like dreams or every other little things that reminds me of you, I really hate it, too be honest, I can't deny it. I was happy for that little time that I was with you. All I remember is going to work and having you on my mind, that feeling there is what I'm starting to believe that ultimately that will make me happy somehow and somehow I need to find that in someone.

I don't know and I'm lost, I keep convincing myself not to call you because I get the urge of doing so. I would give anything to hear your voice or to see that smile of yours with your pearly white teeth smiling at me. That look and stare that I can't get out of my head, its enchanting, I don't understand I'm baffled and confused...

I am with someone now, she is great and she has a great personality at times, but sometimes I get sadden because I'm not as happy as I was with you. I changed the URL to this blog so she wont find it. Lets hope she doesn't. I do like her though and I think my love is growing but she isn't here, she isn't here to help me get you out of my head.

baffled and confused searching for answers....

DMV

SO Tired...


Went to the DMV yesterday glad that I made it out of there without losing my temper so my plan worked. I did lie that I had an appointment but it worked, she asked me for my last name and I told her that I made the appointment online. She simply gave me my number and didn’t ask any questions. Getting to the counter was another story, I think the teller was brand new or something because she didn’t know what she was doing. Usually if that’s the case I would ask to see someone else that knows that they are doing but since it was after work I had time to spare so I stood there patiently waiting.

Yes it's 7:00AM

Late to work today

Yes I was late to work today; lucky my supervisor gets in 2 hours after me so I'll be fine. I better start going to sleep earlier, it’s hard but I'll try my best. One of the machines had problems last night so I’m trying to fix it; I think I just have to order one of the bulbs for it. Not sure I’m still working on it.

So funny thing yesterday someone here offer me a fruit. I'm not one to say no so I was glad to take it. The fruit looked like a kiwi, but it wasn't hairy like one, she said it was a pewii. I said what’s a pewii? I thought she was mistaken so I told her it’s called a kiwi well apparently this fruit was a mixture of a peach and a kiwi, hence the name pewii. Well I didn’t like the fruit it tasted weird, I told her can just have a kiwi with out the peach she laughed at me.

My niece’s birthday is on Sunday and I have to get her something, not sure yet what to get her. Perhaps some arts stuff since her new hobby is art, wonder how long is that going to last. Along with her Taekuondo, flute and swimming and now art she is pretty busy oh and of course school.


Ok, better get back to work my supervisor just got in…

Tired

I've been home for about an hour and half, feeling tired, I need to go to the DMV but I really don't feel like sitting there wasting my life for about three hours. I will go this Wendsday but I do have a plan, I'm going to walk up to the counter that gives the numbers to the people and I'm going to say that I have an appoitment, although I don't but they don't check, but if she does I'll write a text doc with some bs numbers and dates... It will work I know it.

DInner with MOM

Had dinner with my mom last night, it was good. I was bother about the fact that the only way to park my car in this city was only through valet parking. I despite the fact that I couldn't just park in a parking lot as I'm use to. I had to hand over my keys to a stranger. I've been to a lot better restaurants and those restaurants had options whether to valet part or just park.

I've changed to title of this blog since I have made up my mind about law school, not that it matters but I figure the title should fit my interests and background. A lot has been going on, school and work has kept me pretty busy. Went to a house gathering on Friday it was ok nothing too spectacular, had a couple of drinks... I have not drank in a while so I had to watch what I drank or else I would have been kneeling to the porcelain. Sister is coming today so I'll get to see my niece and nephew. Alright until next time.

HI

Yeah you remember me, I'm the owner of this blogg... I know I haven't written in here for quite some time it is just that I've been so busy. Alright here is an update on my life.

Law School.... Well that I have put it aside since I don't think I would be able to do 3 more years of concentrated school. I've been through very hard times through out my life and people that know me would agree I just think I need to stop putting myself through horrendous training and have fun for a change.

To answer my dilemma from two blogs ago I have made a choice and I choose to be an engineer. I am now attending some pre-grad school courses, as a matter of fact I'm taking a class with my old math teacher I took that chance and asked her to write me a letter of recommendation, she agreed. I had a test on Tuesday it was hard but it definitely reassure me that I am heading towards a path that I would like to be. Haven't applied to any grad schools yet but I will as soon as I take the GRE.

Work is fine, easy, that is probably why I am going to grad school since it isn't as stressfull as it could be or as it had been. To be honest I've been sitting at my desk doing nothing for the past hour, yeah nice.

I got a new place now with my old roomate it's ok, I have my own room and things look fine.

OK ok I difinetly need to get back to work, I'll continue this post later, perhaps during lunch time... alright untill next time.