Dream of You Last night

I don't know why, I usually don't even dream but last night I did and you were in it. It wasn't a good dream were I was happy because I was with you, it was a bad dream because you weren't with me. I don't know what's wrong with me, its seems that I'm diseased with this sickness I really dislike feeling like this.

People have told me that when I write in here about you it seems that I am writing in here about my soulmate, I refuse to believe that. You hurt me and by the looks of it I have not recovered yet. Little things like dreams or every other little things that reminds me of you, I really hate it, too be honest, I can't deny it. I was happy for that little time that I was with you. All I remember is going to work and having you on my mind, that feeling there is what I'm starting to believe that ultimately that will make me happy somehow and somehow I need to find that in someone.

I don't know and I'm lost, I keep convincing myself not to call you because I get the urge of doing so. I would give anything to hear your voice or to see that smile of yours with your pearly white teeth smiling at me. That look and stare that I can't get out of my head, its enchanting, I don't understand I'm baffled and confused...

I am with someone now, she is great and she has a great personality at times, but sometimes I get sadden because I'm not as happy as I was with you. I changed the URL to this blog so she wont find it. Lets hope she doesn't. I do like her though and I think my love is growing but she isn't here, she isn't here to help me get you out of my head.

baffled and confused searching for answers....