Feeling Like Crap

Keep thinking about you I'm lost, I wont call you or try to contact you but man if I had one wish. All I would wish for is to be with you, I don't know why. I hate this so much, I can't concentrate, sitting here writing about you brings tears to my eyes. It sucks really bad, I'm in school now but it's hard to concentrate when you are on my mind. I make nonesence why should I feel like this...

I don't know what to do, its more evident now that my girlfriend isn't here... I know she doesn't deserve this but I can't deny it, I can't negate it it's what is going on in my head. Work sucks I hate it, I have an phone interview for a job in Texas if I get the job I'll take it to get out of this city. I hate being here thinking what are you doing this weekend I know you live in San Diego and you probably come here for the weekends................

I really hate writing about you, makes me sadden wasting time dwelling on the past.

going fucken swimming going to swim unill I throw up... naah don't think I can but I'll try.

Still stupidly waiting for you...