My Torment

Even though hesitant at first my impulses take over I finally get the courage, I gently caress her kiss her, the mood is set. I begin to get comfortable, and then slowly move down her neck and shoulder, I slowly run my fingers into the back of her hair then kiss her. I close my eyes I kiss her gently along the curvature of her body, it is soft and gentle just like I remembered for a split second I am in haven it feels good it feels just right. I’ve missed you, where have you been, where have you gone. This is the happiest I have ever been in a long time it is great. Everything is in the past, it doesn’t matter to me anymore you are here. I slowly turn my head up to look at your eyes, they're not the same, they aren’t like I remember them, wait a minute it isn’t you. I look back down close my eyes and a tear rolls down my cheek. I stop, she says why did you stop, I don’t have the courage to say, I say not a word. Deep inside I know the answer but I don’t dare say it, I don’t dare admit to it but I can’t deny it.